I say it all the time, but saying it doesn't really mean acceptance, I guess. My mom is never going to change, and it's just something I need to accept. It's been years now of never being good enough for her, of walking on eggshells, of always falling short. But I also know in my heart there is nothing more that I can do - that I really am doing the best I can and that's good enough for me and that is all that needs to matter. I don't have to meet anybody's standards but my own.
I am never going to be the daughter that she wanted. And that sucks. But at least I'm going to be the person I know I can be and that's enough for me.
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